dunia

dunia

kau cahaya;

siapa sangka

kau mampu

buat begitu

dicari dan dinanti

menunggu dalam diam

untuk kau

pulang ke rumah

kau berkhidmat 

untuk negara

demi mencari

aman sejahtera

terima kasih 

aku ungkapkan

untuk Malaysia

yang aman damai 

-sofia t.

isn't it

isn't it insane
;to love him deeply
;to waste all your time
just to obsess so keenly?

isn't it eerie
to feel your rib cage crashing
to spend too much dimes
to capture his feelings?

isn't it bizzare
to hurt yourself everyday
for he to told you he despise of you
and make you feel like nothing

oh my, oh my
love will make you cry
oh dear, oh dear
love is now my fear

s.t

lost

when i say
that i'm lost

its not because i dont know who i am
;or where i am
;or who i am supposed to be

oddly enough,
its because i know myself exactly
i'm so complex
;that i cannot comprehend
myself

;lost is not a result
;lost is not an attitude
lost is a feeling

s.t

here's to the people

Here's to the silent,
;the sad people,
;and the lonely

To the one who loved too much,
; and given their all
;and got nothing for return

Here's to the people who smokes endlessly
;to ease the pain,
and to the depressed who cry themselves to sleep

To the ones who hurt but dont show
;and the ones who constantly think of suicide
that no one knows

to the one whose hopes are left to rot
and the one who screams and cry
constantly

listen and read,
someday, it will all be okay

if its not okay, then its not the end
because at the end,
everything will be okay

s.t

she wonder

he once loves a girl
who was as deep
as the ocean
so deep
;till he could feel the breeze
but he never heard she speaks through her voice
when she cries

she wonder
if a man could ever love her
;for everything she was
;for everthing she were
;and for everything she are now
stormy night & calm morning
all those secret
that lay on the bottom of the sea

she wonder if he could safe her
who was as deep
as ocean
she ask herself
if he loves the mystery
and all the creatures
that swam
inside her mind

Because he was to busy
to make her happy
he never noticed
that she was drowning

s.t

never knew

she had blue skin,
so did he.

He kept it hidden,
And so did she.

They search for blue
Their whole life through

Then passed right by,
And they never knew

s.t

i remember now

it was raining hard, that day

the pavements were wet

and it was cold

I saw you walking, shivering

walking down across the road

bitting your lips asking for heat

you were wearing faded black jeans

in old roshe nike shoe 

you once told me its your favourite

i was under red grant roof which used to be our coffee shop

you were heading my way 

step by step, closer

i want to run, but i want to see

the person 

that i used to love

as you walked past me

you stop

turning around and see the clearer view of me

i was nervous

i dont know what to do

should i say hi

But then, you smiled at me,

and everything felt familiar

like I belonged to that place, right across you

But everything became blur afterwards

I remember now

It was long ago, since i lost you

s.t

ask

i always wonder

why

birds stay in the same place

when they can fly

anywhere on the earth

then i ask myself

the same question

s.t

in hope

she was only fifteen
when someone told her fat
so she clutched her stomach and skipped meals
in hope she lose a few pounds

she was only fifteen
when her boyfriend left for another girl
so she puts on more make up and changed her wardrobe
in hope that someone would find her pretty

she was only fifteen
when she was diagnosed with neurofibrosa schwanomma
so she was in and out for hospital treatment
in hope someone would visit her

She was only sixteen
when she cried herself to sleep because everyone left her
so she put her face into the pillow
in hope no one would hear her

she was only sixteen
when she got the first scar on her left elbow
so she wore sleeves over the summer
in hope no one would see her scars


She was only sixteen
when she took her own life
she stop fighting for living
in hope people will remember her death

s.t

never will i understand why

Never will I understand how a month ago

you were telling me you love me

whisper;shrieked;yelped

Then you turn around giving your love to somebody else

implored with condelescence to me

you once say i was your everything

Never will I understand why you only

fought for yourself ;; your love once

which by not me

Never will I understand why

I'm still in love with you

and what we had is

only what we used to be

s.t

she

She buried her head in books

so no one could see the

emptiness in her eyes

She filled her mind

with fictional fantasies

and hope that one day

they would become real

but because her eyes

was stuck in a book

she never got the chance

to have adventure on her own

s.t